I give my self to you Jesus

While I was thinking and contemplating about life , Jesus and his wonderful commandments and his wonderful promise and few other things came to my mind, thought came to me and made me to stop. Yes, I stopped and began to listen and understand what God is saying to me. The word came to my mind was I needed to surrender everything to Jesus for he knows my life. Then I thought of a song that says I give myself away.

I thought about many things along the way , following the word of the Lord , I thought about it praying , contemplating , and in most part I was crying and sobbing .

One thing I was sure at the time was, I was able to say I give myself to you Jesus. I said this knowing who Jesus is , what has done for me, from where he brought me, how he kept me, and thinking about many of his words and provision he gave me.

I was so blessed and touched. Then , I sat down to reflect on the whole experience . These are some of the thought came to my mind that helped me surrender to Jesus. The first thing came to my mind was , I am sure I am not a person who deserve anything from JESUS. I heard my self saying this clearly , I deserve nothing from JESUS, because I know who I am . I realized I am not worthy of anything for I was able to see who I really am . I said , Lord I am not worthy of anything , and I don’t dwarves your love , and your mercy. I learned I am unworthy when I though of myself as a person , as a human being in the flesh. I was persuaded I don't deserve anything from Jesus.

Then , I realized he has done it any way though I didn’t deserve anything from him . I learned that he called me, he thought me so many things I don’t deserve to have , I learned that he protected me from all dangers rose to destroy my life . When I realized all these and what he has done for me , the only thing I could say was Lord I give myself to you. I surrender everything to you. I was clearly able to say , I give myself away. Then , I was able to look back to my life see where he brought me , all what he has done for me , what he thought me , all the protection and favour upon me , when I looked back see myself as a person ,all the wrong things I have done against him , I cried , sincerely cried and repented for I was able to see how sinful and undeserving I am. I was able to see how much I failed God , how much worthless and undeserving of anything of God. I was able to look in all area of my life and realized that I am really unworthy to receive anything from God. I learned that I don’t deserve anything from God for I learned who I truly am. I confess I am , I am a deceiver, I am a cheat , I am a hypocrite , i failed to hear God many times. I cried and cried and said , “ I am unworthy and I don’t deserve anything” When I learned about the time and situation that I failed God , I could only cry and sob for I know I am not worthy , worthy to stand before him, worthy to be alive , worthy of anything from the Lord. Through my prayer and cry , I was able to smile on something. I was surprised to see I was smiling , and think about something that brought a smile on my face , I smiled well. I smile well while I was surprised to see myself smiling while crying and sobbing . I take note that can happen , you can find something make you smile while you are crying , I thank the Lord Jesus for everything that brought smile to my face and promised myself to smile no matter what .

Then came to my mind that God is a faithful God and he has done all what he has done for me, all his love , mercy and protection , favour and anything is because of his mercy and his covenant . I recalled a scripture that says , “For thou art an holy people unto the Lord thy God: the Lord thy God hath chosen thee to be a special people unto himself, above all people that are upon the face of the earth. The Lord did not set his love upon you, nor choose you, because ye were more in number than any people; for ye were the fewest of all people: But because the Lord loved you, and because he would keep the oath which he had sworn unto your fathers, hath the Lord brought you out with a mighty hand, and redeemed you out of the house of bondmen, from the hand of Pharaoh king of Egypt. Know therefore that the Lord thy God, he is God, the faithful God, which keepeth covenant and mercy with them that love him and keep his commandments to a thousand generations; “Deuteronomy 7:6-9 KJV Then came another scripture that convince and persuaded and convinced me to believe and trust in God no matter what . I recalled what Paul was indicating in Roman chapter 8 for he said many things before he said, “Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter. Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:35-39 KJV I said Amen to the word of the Lord , continued thanking him.

Then came a word of the Lord that was in my heart that says , “One thing have I desired of the Lord, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord, and to enquire in his temple. For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock. And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in his tabernacle sacrifices of joy; I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the Lord. Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me, and answer me. When thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto thee, Thy face, Lord, will I seek. Hide not thy face far from me; put not thy servant away in anger: thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation. When my father and my mother forsake me, then the Lord will take me up. Teach me thy way, O Lord, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies.” Psalm 27:4-11,

I said, Amen🙏, blessed be the name of the Lord for his word!

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