One wonderful Sunday

This is not what I planed for the day when I left my place in the morning. I never thought this is how I would spend this Sunday afternoon. Mostly, I spend Sunday morning teaching youth a Sunday school , and attending church service in the afternoon.

This is what happened. I find myself having a conversation with a family from church. Throughout our our conversation I learned someone from the family need to take a rest before the afternoon Service for they lived one hour away from where there church is. I thought about it for a while and I decided to offer them my place to rest. I thought the person would use my bed to rest , and the rest of us would have coffee and chat.

However , shortly after we learned this plan would not work due to some unexpected reason.

So, we decided to go somewhere close by and spend the afternoon together. We decided to go to a nearby mall and have a coffee.

This is what happened after. We have seen a huge crowd around the mall. We basically were not sure what it was until we get very close. We learned later that it was an annual amusement fair that was opened for the weekend. The place was filled with these big machines and with the people came to enjoy their time. Off course we observed the situation and decided to take part and have fun.

The thing is, I knew I was in amusement park before, but I never tried to participate rides these scary looking machines. I happened to shar part of my experience with the family, a husband and a wife with two girls. I told them that I didn't try these things before for its scary. They heard me, and suggested I should try it this time. Obviously, I tried to avoid it, but they insisted I should try it, especially the children.

After a while , I said Yea, I should. Then, I said, lets do it for I am convinced that I should try it. I thought this is the time to do it and get over this fear. So, we bought tickets for three different ride and went to try it. The first ride was , the arc. There was a huge arc that people would sit inside and then the operator would start the engine. What happen is the arc would start swinging from side to side slowly before it become faster and faster.

I remember my feelings when we first enter the act. I actually had a mixed feelings. I had the feeling of excitement and the feeling of fear. I thought about my feelings and learned I was excited for I was trying to do this for the first time. I felt a bit worried for this is the first time to try this. I remember, it became more scarier when the swinging became faster and higher. I was thinking about, what would happen if this , and that happen. I was thinking all the wrong things that possibly happened. At some point I was seriously confronted with some terrible thoughts for I was thinking this and that. However, I was telling myself to come down, and relax. While all these thoughts are going through my mind, Kaylee, one of the girl sitting beside me was comforting me its going to be Ok.

She was telling me its going to be ok and its fun though it is scary. I remember at one point I was yelling when its moving faster. I was yelling, we all find ourselves yelling and laughing. Suddenly, things changed, and we realised all is well. I believe the fear has gone and I became fine.

During the ride, I learned many things as a result of the new experience. I learned the fear of doing something new is real, but somehow I had a conversation with myself to have faith in God , and also to trust the people and their work. I thought these people are there to make sure people are having fun, and they are safe. I thought I need to trust the people and the process in place, I take note.

These are the things I came across after I spend time to reflect about the entire experience. I thought it was a wonderful experience though it is an experience filled with mixed feelings. I thought it was exciting and wonderful experience for I was able to spend some time with the children, and their family. I was happy for I had so much fun with the children. I thought It was also a bit challenging experience for there were some scary moments as well.

I also thought this experience helped me to look back to my early childhood experience, which was filled with relatively similar feelings and experiences. I realised I had similar feelings when I am about to embark new adventure as a child. I always feel excited and happy when I am about to try something new or when I am out for adventure. I particularly remember the feeling I had when I am of going out to have some adventure of exploring my surrounding. I often would love to go out for a walk in the forest and I would have similar feelings. I vividly remember the feeling I would encounter when I enter the forest, I remember the feeling of excitement I have for I wanted to see something new. I remember what excite me more, the sounds of the birds, and some arboreal animas. Its so exciting and moving in one sense, but I also hold the feeling of fear for I heard about many scary stories that older family members would tell us to discourage us not to go away from our neighbourhood.

However, no matter what I heard I am that kid that would love to go out , to play, go for adventure, and explore the surrounding. So, I often would go away from my neighbourhood to fulfill these ambitions, the ambition of exploring my surrounding, walking in the forest to see some of the animals and birds. What I remember most and what I loved about this is , walking in the middle of the forest hearing all the sounds of birds and other arboreal animals. I could see how scary it is for sometimes the little sound be heard louder, it could be more louder if you have that scary story in your mind as well. However, It does not matter for I often find myself doing that , walking in the forest , and around the forest. I love trying new things , particularly going for an adventure to see and learn about the environment I live. I think this desire and feeling has been there with me for a long time. It is true somehow my adulthood experience took away part of this desires to learning to explore, interact with nature.

It is true most of our adult life is occupied with the idea of exploring career , and other things that we were taught is important. Therefore, we spend most of our life trying to do the things we are not sure what we are doing.

What happened is this particular moments, and this particular experience is helped me to think and realised about the things that I use to love and enjoy. It helped me to look back and remember all the good times I had as a child, all the adventures, the exiting moments and experiences I had with friends and families. I basically enjoyed the experience I had earlier today and I thought this is the beginning of getting back to it. I love the adventure of going out for exploring, learning new things and having new experiences. I am grateful for everything.